Fears and Thoughts as a Result of Infant Death

Every once in a while I will have these fears, thoughts, and images come to my mind. Things I do not wish for nor ask for. They aren't every day thoughts, but they are thoughts that can lead to someone spiraling or feeling guilt, depression, anger, more sadness, or even apathy.
I share one of my intimate thoughts that I had today, 30.5 weeks into my 6th pregnancy, 4th full term baby.

baby death,infant loss,